memories flood back...

So many days go by and I wonder how the hell did I crash, burn, and end up here.  Im from a small, one stop light hicktown in the middle of nowhere...my mom was a teacher and my dad a mechanic.  A life that was nothing but cliche...church every sunday because we had to...and the friday night lights were the only thing really to attract out of towners.  Little pubs and diners line streets, along with the local barber shop and dance studio.  Life was simple there...how did it all change?  For the past year Ive decided that I wanted to depend on myself again, left my family and my ex in the rearview mirror not daring to look back to see who i hurt on my way to self destruction.  These days my heart hurts...i want to be a kid again where everything would be okay...where bills didnt pile up and friends werent hurt by me leaving it all behind.